I want to live a life of honesty. I gotta tell you that honesty wasn’t even possible or in my vocabulary when I was out there as a soldier for Satan. Today, it’s still a struggle. I have to sometimes catch myself then go back and make amends right away. Sometimes I lie to myself. It’s when I shed the light of truth on the darkness that is trying to envelope me, that I receive peace and hope yet again. Some things I don’t like to talk about. I would love to be able to pretend that everything is OK. I have a reputation to uphold, right? I have people looking to me for a message everyday, so I can’t mess up…right? WRONG. I wish I were perfect, but the only perfect person that ever walked the face of the Earth was JESUS. I’m not perfect and I make mistakes. Satan is very sneaky and he uses past behaviors to try to trip me up and the next thing I know I am back in depression, back feeling sorry for myself, back trying to do things in my own power and I start sliding down a very familiar slippery slope. I was very good at pretending. I would get lost in what I “should” be and lose sight of where I really was.
Last week was I was stuck in the breeding ground of the enemy. I nearly lost myself in the process of trying to work things out on my own. It wasn’t until I RAN to Jesus and admitted my sin that I was able to be set free. My old patterns started creeping back in and unless I SPEAK TRUTH (even when it hurts and I am embarrassed) then I won’t achieve freedom which is my greatest desire. I don’t want to end up struck down because of my disobedience in trying to keep things under wraps. JESUS KNOWS MY HEART. He knows what I do behind closed doors. He knows when old things (such as eating disorders and bad habits and depression) are knocking at my door to be let in. These things ask to be let in when I feel like I am losing control over important things in my life. Some things I HAVE let in. Here is what happened…those dark spirits in the recesses of my heart shrank back in the cowardly way that they only know how when the LIGHT of JESUS shone through at my request. MY REQUEST. I have to ask, or I won’t receive! I have to be honest or it won’t go away. I have to get REAL with myself and let God do His work in me or it won’t work! I can’t pretend. I can’t walk around speaking in riddles and spinning a web of half truths. What happens to my character then? Here is a prime example of dishonesty turned tragic when people don’t speak truth:
Acts 5:1-11 – Now a man named Ananias, together with his wife Sapphira, also sold a piece of property. 2 With his wife’s full knowledge he kept back part of the money for himself, but brought the rest and put it at the apostles’ feet. 3 Then Peter said, “Ananias, how is it that Satan has so filled your heart that you have lied to the Holy Spirit and have kept for yourself some of the money you received for the land? 4 Didn’t it belong to you before it was sold? And after it was sold, wasn’t the money at your disposal? What made you think of doing such a thing? You have not lied just to human beings but to God.” 5 When Ananias heard this, he fell down and died. And great fear seized all who heard what had happened. 6 Then some young men came forward, wrapped up his body, and carried him out and buried him. 7 About three hours later his wife came in, not knowing what had happened. 8 Peter asked her, “Tell me, is this the price you and Ananias got for the land?” “Yes,” she said, “that is the price.” 9 Peter said to her, “How could you conspire to test the Spirit of the Lord? Listen! The feet of the men who buried your husband are at the door, and they will carry you out also.” 10 At that moment she fell down at his feet and died. Then the young men came in and, finding her dead, carried her out and buried her beside her husband.
Jesus knows me. He KNOWS me!!! But it’s ok because there is no condemnation in Christ Jesus! If I flat out lie to myself then I am only hurting myself! HE ALREADY KNOWS and He loves me anyway! He won’t strike me dead and allow me to get my full dose of sin if I shine His light all over it! He’ll pick me up, wipe me off, and make me clean as snow all over again! PRAISE THE LORD FOR MERCY AND GRACE!
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To further your reading, consider this from:
Romans 8:1-2 – Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, 2 because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you free from the law of sin an death.
There isn’t a person on earth who can stand before God and claim “Not Guilty”. We ALL have sinned and fallen short….every last one of us….and Jesus is the ONLY ONE we can turn to in order to find help for our troubles and then we CAN stand before the Lord and allow Him to proclaim, “NOT GUILTY!” WOO HOO!!!! Freedom never tasted so good!
Related Scriptures: 1 John 3:20; 2 Corinthians 3:9; Jude 1:4