Pride. That everso fine line between bragging about accomplishments and talking up good deeds done in orer to answer charges against oneself. In the passages below, we will see that Job has been backed into a corner and is using (like I do sometimes) his most defensive weapon. In our vain attempts to get the approval of others, we try desperately to prove that we are right by our actionss and deeds when our hearts truly speak volumes of self-loathing.
Job 29:1-25 – “How I long for the months gone by,
for the days when God watched over me,
3 when his lamp shone on my head
and by his light I walked through darkness!
4 Oh, for the days when I was in my prime,
when God’s intimate friendship blessed my house,
5 when the Almighty was still with me
and my children were around me,
6 when my path was drenched with cream
and the rock poured out for me streams of olive oil.
7 “When I went to the gate of the city
and took my seat in the public square,
8 the young men saw me and stepped aside
and the old men rose to their feet;
9 the chief men refrained from speaking
and covered their mouths with their hands;
10 the voices of the nobles were hushed,
and their tongues stuck to the roof of their mouths.
11 Whoever heard me spoke well of me,
and those who saw me commended me,
12 because I rescued the poor who cried for help,
and the fatherless who had none to assist them.
13 The one who was dying blessed me;
I made the widow’s heart sing.
14 I put on righteousness as my clothing;
justice was my robe and my turban.
15 I was eyes to the blind
and feet to the lame.
16 I was a father to the needy;
I took up the case of the stranger.
17 I broke the fangs of the wicked
and snatched the victims from their teeth.
18 “I thought, ‘I will die in my own house,
my days as numerous as the grains of sand.
19 My roots will reach to the water,
and the dew will lie all night on my branches.
20 My glory will not fade;
the bow will be ever new in my hand.’
21 “People listened to me expectantly,
waiting in silence for my counsel.
22 After I had spoken, they spoke no more;
my words fell gently on their ears.
23 They waited for me as for showers
and drank in my words as the spring rain.
24 When I smiled at them, they scarcely believed it;
the light of my face was precious to them.
25 I chose the way for them and sat as their chief;
I dwelt as a king among his troops;
I was like one who comforts mourners.
The moment fear grips me so tight and I feel backed into a corner that makes no sense is the time to shut my mouth and listen. That is so hard when I am drowning in self contained egotism. Susan always says, “The THING you try so desperately to hide is the one thing you broadcast the most about yourself.” Truer words have never been spoken. What am I trying to cover up? What am I really doing?
I ask God daily, “Why me? Why can’t I just have a normal life? Why are you asking me to do these things? Why am I so hard to love and why do I push people away? Where does this need for approval come from? Why do I make such hasty decisions?”
You can read Job 29-32 about Job and his friends at www.biblegateway.com.. What a testimony to God’s favor and mercy upon us all! Join in the discussion by posting comments or questions below and let’s do this together!! #ReadtheBible #bgbg2 #BibleGateway #newbeginnings #Job
To further your reading, and to dive a bit deeper, consider this from:
Proverbs 13:10 – Where there is strife, there is pride, but wisdom is found in those who take advice.
Admitting when we are wrong is the most powerful thing we can do. We must be open to advice from others so we dont’ get stuck in OURSELVES.