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Revelation 12:11 – They triumphed over him
by the blood of the Lamb
and by the word of their testimony;
they did not love their lives so much
as to shrink from death.

test6ALL I HAD TO DO WAS LISTEN to the voice of God, slow down my thinking, and pay attention to who He was telling me I was, but I couldn’t hear Him anymore. I put the Lord on a backburner. I threw my hands up in sweet surrender and allowed other thoughts and actions to creep into the time and space allotted for Him. In all reality, if Jesus were to encompass all my time and space (set aside time or just TIME), the rest of my priorities would fall into place like the right edges of jigsaw puzzle without much effort on my part at all.

test7As a Christian, the last thing I want to admit is that I was wrong, that I put the Savior of the world and my life on a slow simmer instead of keeping Him at a rolling boil. Free will is great, when I use it for His glory. It is not so great when the choice is made to look to the right or to the left instead of straight ahead. I came to the realization that it isn’t all about me. I learned that God knows what He is doing and sometimes it’s none of my business. Even if it is horrible at the time, He works all things out for His good. I’m tired of playing the victim and being stuck in Satan’s lies. Sabotage…PRIDE…complacency…the root of all evil.

However, THE LORD ALLOWED THINGS TO TAKE PLACE SO THAT IN THE END I WOULD GLORIFY HIM THROUGH IT. The test hurts, and I was in a test for a long time. I am still in the test some days. But it is now my TESTIMONY!!! Jesus will never forsake me in my weakness. He will never leave me. Even when I was making bad choices and near death, He was with me. It was the things I was holding onto that were keeping me sick. God has a purpose and a plan and we may not always see it, but His will is sovereign and right and just.

test9I am expecting something HUGE now, something radical, something life-changing to occur. Sure, I am struggling. Sure, there is a massive spiritual battle being waged in and around me, but I am faithful to the end. Even if God’s answer today I not what I am expecting or even hoping for, I will still praise Him and look to Him. I won’t ask, “WHY?”. I will not be confused or discouraged. There is a reason and a season for everything under the sun. I will not be impatient. Today, I have specific prayers. Today, people are going to walk away from a situation baffled because of God’s mighty hand. Today is the day where lives are changed, people are healed, and a testimony is born. This season marks a new beginning in my life, one that will bring me into a new relationship with the Lord, one that I have sought after but never succeeded in finding. I want to know ME. I want to know GOD. I desire to see what is birthed through this process, through this new day, new year, new life

test10Revelation 12:14-17 – 14 The woman was given the two wings of a great eagle, so that she might fly to the place prepared for her in the wilderness, where she would be taken care of for a time, times and half a time, out of the serpent’s reach. 15 Then from his mouth the serpent spewed water like a river, to overtake the woman and sweep her away with the torrent. 16 But the earth helped the woman by opening its mouth and swallowing the river that the dragon had spewed out of his mouth. 17 Then the dragon was enraged at the woman and went off to wage war against the rest of her offspring—those who keep God’s commands and hold fast their testimony about Jesus. .

The following is something I read on Facebook the other day:

This is the beginning a new trend of identification. You will develop your personal identity with greater precision and express yourself more completely apart from outside influences. The result will be that you will know who you really are; who you are in Me and who I am in you, says the Lord. This will be a dynamic revelation that will carry you into a new era. Philippians 3:10 that I may know Him and the power of His resurrection, and the fellowship of His sufferings, being conformed to His death, if, by any means, I may attain to the resurrection from the dead.

test8Just hang on my dear friend! The battle has already been won! Even if the the answer doesn’t come today, everything leading to this point has caused a shift in the heavenlies, and I will continue to trust God. His love is UNFAILING! Don’t get stuck chasing a nightmare because you didn’t obey the very simple command to live in the dream. The choice is yours….