I had a pretty intense moment at Jacob’s Well. It was my 46th day there. It was a Thursday. I will never forget it as long as I live. Chains that had held me bound for nearly 20 years fell off. I experienced God in a way I never had before and I finally felt free. The night before had been horrific for me. Satan is such a deceiver that he tries to get to me when I am unconscious and asleep. And that night it worked. When I woke up the next morning, I had so much fear, anxiety, worry, paranoia, and confusion on me that I couldn’t even breathe. I was ready to walk out of Jacob’s Well. I couldn’t stop shaking, and I couldn’t stop crying. It was so painful. And then I found out why. My deliverance was coming and Satan wanted me on the plank and out the before that could happen.
Ephesians 6:12 – For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.
I had the amazing opportunity to sit with Pastor and Mrs. Tilghman that day for intense counseling and prayer. I was in prayer with them for over 2 hours and it felt like minutes. God spoke to me. ALL I HAD TO DO WAS LISTEN. Listen to His voice, slow down my thinking, and pay attention to who He was telling me I was. I came to the realization that it isn’t all about me. I learned in that session that God knows what He is doing and sometimes it’s none of my business. Even if it is horrible at the time, like losing a parent to prison or to suicide, He works all things out for His good. I look at my life when my 1st dad was around. It was chaotic, it was stressful, I hardly ever saw him. I wonder what my life would have been like had he lived. Not just for me, but for the rest of my family. I was 15 years old when he died. I took his death, victimized myself, and CHOSE to walk a different path. I didn’t see the big picture. My mom is so happy today. I have an amazing dad who loves me very much and would do anything for me and my sister and his two daughters. He is a provider. He isn’t selfish. He loves the Lord with all his heart. And he adores my mom. The reason I fell apart from my family was MY choice. From my family, from my ex-husband, from my own children, all because I was the victim and I was stuck in Satan’s lies. THE LORD ALLOWED THINGS TO TAKE PLACE SO THAT IN THE END I WOULD GLORIFY HIM THROUGH IT.
Genesis 50:20 – You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.
The test hurts, and I was in a test for a long time. But it is now my TESTIMONY!!! Jesus will never forsake me in my weakness. He will never leave me. Even when I was making bad choices and near death, He was with me. It was the things I was holding onto that were keeping me sick.
It says FULL armor, not a piece, not just one thing, but ALL of it. As Susan says all the time, “What’s in ALL? Everything! What’s left out of ALL? Nothing!” The only way I can stand up against this terrible enemy that wants me dead is to stand my ground, armed and ready for battle. I must depend on God’s strength and use every single piece He has given me. These enemies will try everything to turn me away from Jesus and back to sin. But God will not allow that to happen. Especially if I do my part and hit the floor ready for the onslaught. I will stand FIRM in truth, righteousness, readiness, peace, faith, and salvation!! The belt of Truth will combat the lies. The breastplate of Righteousness will guard my heart since everything flows from it. My feet will be ready, not to run, but to STAND firm in what I believe! The shield of Faith will protect me from the flaming arrows that are being shot at me with all my past mistakes and my insecurities. Faith is believing in things unseen and I do believe! The helmet of salvation will protect my mind from the inner voice that plagues me. I have been saved through Christ Jesus. That is TRUTH. And I pray everyday that the word of God is a sword coming from my mouth! I pray that He uses me in a way that I can speak to others clearly and without confusion as to the saving power of Jesus Christ.
You can read Ephesians 4-6 about the Paul’s message to the people of Ephesus at www.biblegateway.com. What a testimony to God’s favor and mercy upon us all! Join in- the discussion by posting comments or questions below and let’s do this together!! #ReadtheBible #bgbg2 #BibleGateway #newbeginnings #Ephesians
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Romans 8:28-38 – And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified. What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all – how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died – more than that, who was raised to life – is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written: “For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.” NO, IN ALL THESE THINGS WE ARE MORE THAN CONQUERORS THROUGH HIM WHO LOVED US. FOR I AM CONVINCED THAT NEITHER DEATH NOR LIFE, NEITHER ANGELS NOR DEMONS, NEITHER THE PRESENT NOR THE FUTURE, NOR ANY POWERS, NEITHER HEIGHT NOR DEPTH, NOR ANYTHING ELSE IN ALL CREATION, WILL BE ABLE TO SEPARATE US FROM THE LOVE OF GOD THAT IS IN CHRIST JESUS OUR LORD.
For me, on that day of deliverance, I was set free. I saw the truth. I heard the Lord tell me that I had a purpose. That He was turning every bad circumstance in my life around for His good. He knew me before I was born and even knitted me in my mother’s womb (Psalm 139:13). He knew every bad thing that would happen to me and every bad choice I would make. I have a new mind-set and a new perspective, now. I learned to accept, not resent, pain and persecution. He has always known me and His love has never failed. It is IMPOSSIBLE to be separated from Christ!! That day I was called out of my pit of shame, guilt and remorse, and I was called into the loving arms of my Savior! I still miss my dad very much, and today I can say that I am GRATEFUL for ALL of it, the good, the bad, and the ugly!! I finally chose to put the past where it belongs and stop fighting a battle that was never mine to fight.