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Denial – a psychological defense mechanism in which confrontation with a personal problem or with reality is avoided by denying the existence of the problem or reality; refusing to admit the truth or reality of something unpleasant.

river4Rivers of Denial RUN DEEP. I used to be so co-dependent that I didn’t even know who I was anymore and I flat out refused to stir up the deep wells. I became someone who pretended ALL THE TIME that things were A-OK and I relied on everyone else to see me through. I couldn’t take a good hard look at my circumstances from anyone else’s perspective because in a sick way it felt good for people to feel sorry for me. It was my mask. I still struggle with it today. It’s a LOT easier to recognize it when it comes in. It’s easy for that spirit to sneak right in. Thank the LORD I have loving, godly friends to tell me like it is and today I am willing to listen and change. It’s a choice…plain and simple.

John 14:26-27 – But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you. 27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.

river4Doing the right thing, even when the pain is so great that I can’t breathe, is my number one priority. Even when it is uncomfortable. Even when it doesn’t make total sense. Even when I think my way is better. Even when I feel like everyone is against me and not for me. Even when I am being disciplined. Even when…I will have faith and step right out on it because GOD TOLD ME TO and MY WAY DOESN’T WORK. Period. I found that if I catch denial while it is forming a small creek in my heart, then I have more of a chance of drying it up (with the help and support of those around me and through scripture) before it becomes a deep flowing river that drags me under its current and drowns me in a sea of forgetfulness and self-pity. The question remains…Do I love God enough to do what is right, even if it means giving up personal rewards? Let that one sink in!

river5You can read John 13-16 about the message and ministry of Jesus at www.biblegateway.com. What a testimony to God’s favor and mercy upon us all! Join in- the discussion by posting comments or questions below and let’s do this together!! #ReadtheBible #bgbg2 #BibleGateway #newbeginnings #John

To further your reading, consider this from:

Matthew 16:24-27 – Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. 25 For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it. 26 What good will it be for someone to gain the whole world, yet forfeit their soul? Or what can anyone give in exchange for their soul? 27 For the Son of Man is going to come in his Father’s glory with his angels, and then he will reward each person according to what they have done.”

I might as well be Peter in the Bible when he denied Jesus because that is EXACTLY what I am doing when I choose to follow the ways of the world instead of owning up to my realities and letting HIM handle my business. I can’t hide behind my faith, I can’t hide behind my fears, I can’t hide behind other people. I sure can’t spew a bunch of stuff saying “Look at me and how distressed I am”. I have a choice. Sink or swim. I will walk on water and have FAITH that God already had this all planned and He knows what He is doing! He will not bless that which He did not author. Time to stir up the deep wells!!!! I’m jumping the river of Jesus!!!

Related Scriptures: Deuteronomy 28:1; Acts 2:33; Philippians 4:7