June 27th, 2013 – Day 32’s journal entry at Jacob’s Well:
Sometimes I am so over this place and these people. I feel like I am setting myself up for a fall, I can feel it. But I absolutely must give it to God and continue to do the right thing on purpose. He loves me because HE is GOD, not because I am good (because I’m not good). I need to stop living emotionally and start living on purpose.
The definition of the word “hinder” is to cause delay or interruption, to prevent from doing or happening, to stop, to be an obstacle or impediment. Ok…gosh, that fits me on so many levels it’s not even funny. I am a hindrance to myself, to my recovery, to my walk with the Lord. My opinions are so important these days that it keeps others from wanting to even have one in my presence. NASTY ME!! I am not content with anything. All of this is stemming because I am not getting my way. I am so ungrateful right now and I hate that about myself. I am a barrier to myself, to God, and to people in general. Time to go to the Word.
Matthew 8:5-6 – When Jesus had entered Capernaum, a centurion came to him, asking for help. “Lord,” he said, “my servant lies at home and paralyzed, suffering terribly.”
A centurion was a Roman soldier and officer who had control over 100 soldiers. Roman soldiers were hated by the Jews because they were oppressive and controlling (Uh, conviction). Yet, this man came to Jesus and in turn threw aside every obstacle that could stand in the way of getting to him. Those being pride, doubt, and power. He did not allow any barriers to block his approach to the One who could save his friend. So why am I putting up barriers to the Lord? Why can’t I just be still and content and stop being such a nuisance?
John 6:35,48-51,57-58,60 – Then Jesus declared, “I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never go hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty.”
“I am the bread of life. Your ancestors ate the manna in the wilderness, yet they died. But here is the bread that comes down from heaven. Whoever eats this bread will live forever. This bread is my flesh, which I will give for the life of the world.”
“Just as the living Father sent me and I live because of the Father, so the one who feeds on me will live because of me. This is the bread that came down from heaven. Your ancestors ate manna and died, but whoever feeds on this bread will live forever.”
On hearing it, many of his disciples said, “This is a hard teaching. Who can accept it?”
I love this! People in the desert with Moses were fed manna every single day, bread from heaven, and they eventually passed away. But Jesus is the bread of life! Eating it will help me see with the eye of faith. It will drive away the enemy. It will give me eternal life and satisfy and sustain my new spiritual life. This will allow me change. To become a help and not a hindrance. That, I cannot do alone.
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To further your reading, consider this from:
Philippians 4:11-13 – I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all things through him who gives me strength.
Wow! In order to appreciate the things we have, we must be willing to lose it all for the sake of Christ. What are you holding onto today that could be given away? What could you really do without?
Related Scriptures: 1 Timothy 6:6-8; 1 Corinthians 4:11; 2 Corinthians 12:9