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I feel today as if I am sitting in a cesspool of emotions and feelings. I’m back in the waiting game and I don’t like it AT ALL. Some parts of me want to just throw a good little 2 year old temper tantrum on the floor. I ask the silly questions and listen to the stupid voices fighting against the still, small, voice, “Everything with God is a heart issue. Your heart isn’t right, Julie. You tried and failed. Why don’t you just give up? Quit everything and just walk away.” Waiting with hope is difficult, but today, my patience is tested because I am waiting FOR hope.

waiting5If I get what I want immediately, I am a spoiled little kid that isn’t growing. I always got what I wanted on the street, which is why it was an easy escape route. Not anymore. Impatience is the fruit of pride. Yuck. Waiting is a part of life. Waiting for the miracle, waiting for the promise, waiting for God’s best, waiting for His perfect will.

I want to find myself living a quality of life that is not just endured but enjoyed to the fullest. Even while I’m waiting.

Daniel 10:2-19 – At that time I, Daniel, mourned for three weeks. 3 I ate no choice food; no meat or wine touched my lips; and I used no lotions at all until the three weeks were over.

4 On the twenty-fourth day of the first month, as I was standing on the bank of the great river, the Tigris, 5 I looked up and there before me was a man dressed in linen, with a belt of fine gold from Uphaz around his waist. 6 His body was like topaz, his face like lightning, his eyes like flaming torches, his arms and legs like the gleam of burnished bronze,and his voice like the sound of a multitude.

7 I, Daniel, was the only one who saw the vision; those who were with me did not see it, but such terror overwhelmed them that they fled and hid themselves. 8 So I was left alone, gazing at this great vision; I had no strength left, my face turned deathly pale and I was helpless. 9 Then I heard him speaking, and as I listened to him, I fell into a deep sleep, my face to the ground.

10 A hand touched me and set me trembling on my hands and knees.11 He said, “Daniel, you who are highly esteemed, consider carefully the words I am about to speak to you, and stand up, for I have now been sent to you.” And when he said this to me, I stood up trembling.

waiting612 Then he continued, “Do not be afraid, Daniel. Since the first day that you set your mind to gain understanding and to humble yourself before your God, your words were heard, and I have come in response to them.13 But the prince of the Persian kingdom resisted me twenty-one days. Then Michael, one of the chief princes, came to help me, because I was detained there with the king of Persia. 14 Now I have come to explain to you what will happen to your people in the future, for the vision concerns a time yet to come.”

15 While he was saying this to me, I bowed with my face toward the ground and was speechless. 16 Then one who looked like a man touched my lips, and I opened my mouth and began to speak. I said to the one standing before me, “I am overcome with anguish because of the vision, my lord, and I feel very weak. 17 How can I, your servant, talk with you, my lord? My strength is gone and I can hardly breathe.”

18 Again the one who looked like a man touched me and gave me strength. 19 “Do not be afraid, you who are highly esteemed,” he said. “Peace! Be strong now; be strong.”

waiting1SINCE THE FIRST DAY!! Wow! He hears me! Here is what I am NOT waiting on, things given to me as a precious gift from above. I have the supernatural strength to wait for hope, I have the strength to stand victoriously in the darkest nights. I have this empty place in my heart but I will not allow it to be filled with sadness and despair.

Things get hard when I am trying to do them ALONE, without God’s help. If everything in life were easy, then I would not need the power of the Holy Spirit to help do for me what I cannot do for myself.

I am not smart enough to run my life on my own. I tried and I failed…miserably. It’s time to get comfortable not knowing. It’s time I die to my old ways and my own timing and become alive to God’s will and way for me. I do not want to be unhappy and unfulfilled because I am too busy trying to make things happen instead of waiting patiently for God. The devil is sneaky. Satan knows that the flesh profits nothing. “Peace! Be strong now; be strong.”

You can read Daniel 9-12 about Daniel praying at www.biblegateway.com. What a testimony to God’s favor and mercy upon us all! Join in the discussion by posting comments or questions below and let’s do this together!! #ReadtheBible #bgbg2 #BibleGateway #newbeginnings #Daniel

To further your reading, consider this from:

wait1Luke 18:1-8 – Then Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up. 2 He said: “In a certain town there was a judge who neither feared God nor cared what people thought. 3 And there was a widow in that town who kept coming to him with the plea, ‘Grant me justice against my adversary.’ 4 “For some time he refused. But finally he said to himself, ‘Even though I don’t fear God or care what people think, 5 yet because this widow keeps bothering me, I will see that she gets justice, so that she won’t eventually come and attack me!’” 6 And the Lord said, “Listen to what the unjust judge says. 7 And will not God bring about justice for his chosen ones, who cry out to him day and night? Will he keep putting them off? 8 I tell you, he will see that they get justice, and quickly. However, when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on the earth?”

God wants us to have the desires of our hearts, but He does NOT want the desires of our heart to mean more to us that HIM. We cannot base our lives on “If only’s”, “When’s”, and “Why Not’s”. He promises to give to us if only we will pray for more than just a day or even a week. He wants us to never give up. Sometimes our situations look absolutely HOPELESS in the eyes of the world. The only way the impossible can happen is through prayer! That woman in this story is me. She stood before a judge who neither feared God or cared about men. BUT her persistance paid off and it wore him down! How much more will god respond to His child who cries out to Him day and night? Cry out!! DON’T GIVE UP!!!!

Related Scriptures: Isaiah 35:4; Acts 1:14; Psalm 88:1