There are some days I get stuck in the busy. I get lost in the shuffle of everyday. I lose sight of the importance of true living and I focus on the world. I get bogged down with the “to-do” list and forget to pray over it. I push myself to limits that I shouldn’t and I pay too much attention to the mundane. That is a seriously dangerous place for me. Today is one of those days. I feel like there aren’t enough hours. There isn’t enough money. There isn’t enough prayer, enough hope, enough joy. Satan uses this to his advantage and if I’m not careful, depression soon follows.
Psalm 46:10 – He says, “Be still, and know that I am God.”
Be still. That is a hard task for this girl. I was so used to moving so quickly so I wouldn’t have time for my thoughts that being still for me is almost like punishment in a sad way. Staying busy kept me out of my head. But it is all that is required…just to be still. The “to-do” list is of MY making; it’s not of God.
For an addict, being stuck in the busy can be a jumping off point back into the isolation of the disease. Isolation is the key to end the never-ending chatter in the loneliness of the “too-busy” mind. You might ask, “How can being busy and doing things for others and having work and things to do at home be lonely?” It is. It can be. But it doesn’t have to be. (Hey…this is deep stuff. It makes sense to me!)
When I am in the loneliness of the “too-busy” mind, in sneaks my old friends….self-doubt, confusion, worry, fear, and paranoia. My mind becomes a little playground. These guys are on the jungle gym and having the best time swinging from the circles being spun in my head. The lies are that my past will always be my present. My husband who is out camping having a good time in a large group of people will have too much fun without me and will be hanging around women that I don’t trust. The people at work are all against me. I should just give up and not do anything anymore. I’m not wanted anywhere I go. LIES, LIES, LIES. My thoughts when alone and in isolation get me nowhere unless I take them captive and put them at the foot of the cross!!!
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To further your reading, consider this from:
2 Corinthians 10:5 – We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.
EVERY THOUGHT! If I allow myself this alone time to focus on the “What-If’s” and get stuck in the busy, I will forget the purpose set before me and I will choose to look solely to my past for answers. I WILL GO INSANE and look for solitude in dark places. If I choose (AGAIN…It’s all about my choices) to focus on the fact that I am NEVER alone, my past does not define my present, Jesus LOVES me, I stand on a solid rock, fear is not of the Lord, and God works everything out for those who love Him; then paranoia, fear, and depression must FLEE at the name of Jesus. I CHOOSE TO BELIEVE THE TRUTH.