I used to really believe the lie that I was always in trouble with my Creator. I felt like everything I did was wrong and I didn’t feel worthy of His love, grace, and mercy. The LIES: I failed, I’m miserable, I’m hurting, I’m angry, I’m scared, I’m inadequate, I’m not a good person. The TRUTH: Jesus is my redeemer, He is my protector, He is my friend, He is my Savior. God separates who I am in Christ from what I have done! Thank you JESUS!! Once I realized THAT, then I realized that God is not the author of bad things! He is a God of Justice! He is a God of Love! He is a God of Strength! He is a God of Forgiveness!
Jesus will stay by my side even when I am losing my faith in His promises. I still get bogged down about what to do about everything taking place in my life. I easily forget what God promised me and I try to think about ways to “make things happen” and I lose sight of what He alone can do. I have to be reminded that God is God and He is Faithful! If I refuse His help, then I break communication with Him altogether, but He will NEVER turn His back on me…EVER.
We had a long discussion at Jacob’s Well one night while we were just hanging out after devotion. Someone asked what Mercy really was. After we got into the Word of God, we came to the conclusion that Mercy is NOT getting what I deserve. I deserve Hell and Fire for all that I have done in my life, but God gives me Mercy so that I can continue to walk in FREEDOM. I don’t sin thinking that I have a “get out of jail free card” but if I do sin and I have Godly sorrow and ask for forgiveness and repent and not go back to that SAME sin over and over and over again, then I will be forgiven and His mercy is given to me all over again! GOD IS NOT MAD AT ME, He is mad at the sin that so easily entangles me.
THIS is the legacy I want to leave. He displayed so much patience with me for a very, very, very LONG TIME. And He was there, scarred hands held out, arms open wide…WAITING for ME!
2 Chronicles 7:14 – if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sin and will heal their land.
There was a time in my life where I was guilt ridden. I desired a change, but did nothing about it. I said I was sorry so much that the people in my life couldn’t stand to hear the words anymore because I always went back to the same things that I had originally been sorry for. I felt sorrowful and regretful, but saying the words only bought me more time to figure out how I could go back to being who I was….a sorry excuse for a human being.
God is kind and merciful and patient. He holds back judgment to give me time to repent but He doesn’t just want repentance, He wants CHANGE.
You can read 2 Chronicles 5-8 about the finishing and dedication of the Temple and Solomon’s Prayer at www.biblegateway.com.. What a testimony to God’s favor and mercy upon us all! Join in the discussion by posting comments or questions below and let’s do this together!! #ReadtheBible #bgbg2 #BibleGateway #newbeginnings #2Chronicles
To further your reading, and to dive a bit deeper, consider this from:
Luke 5:32 – I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance.
There are steps to take in order to really live a repentant life.
First, I must humble myself by admitting that I was wrong. That was hard for someone who had so much pride. I used to be unteachable because of my egotistical, conceited, and vain approach to life.
Second, I must pray to God asking for forgiveness. This is where Godly sorrow comes in.
Worldly sorrow is feeling crappy because I got caught and being overly concerned with what others thought of me and not what God thought of me. Godly sorrow is the key to changed behavior.
Third, I must seek God all the time and in all that I do. When I put Him into the equation of every decision I make, it’s really hard for me to make bad decisions.
Nothing can break the communion I have with God when I seek Him with ALL MY HEART!
Fourth, I must turn from my wicked ways! I must BE the change that I desire. I must walk the walk and not just talk the talk. Saying “I am sorry” should have meaning behind it because the person I am speaking to will know of my character that I am a changed person, inside and out.