Lately I have been feeling over-scheduled and exhausted. I’m trying to keep an eye on it because it is a very, VERY familiar trap for me to put so much on myself that I get burnout. I won’t allow that to happen this time and I know God is watching me carefully also. I feel like everything is on a tight schedule and I know I am not alone. For those of you with families, KUDOS to you! God has truly strengthened you for service, Amen!!
I have even begun to time myself on certain tasks so I don’t focus too much on one thing and not give any attention to the others. That’s my form of crazy. WOW! Just writing it down makes it sound so terrible. I know God doesn’t want me to feel this way and I know He will either allow me to get used to it all or He will remove some things in order for me to breathe. I just want to breathe. I am a planner through and through and I feel like if I can stay ahead of all that needs to be done I won’t freak out if it doesn’t get done. I leave myself no room for RELATIONSHIP with my Creator. I leave no time in my day to just sit and be still. I recognize it, and I am working on it. Trying to get back to the basics.
Genesis 28:10-15 – Jacob left Beersheba and set out for Harran. 11 When he reached a certain place, he stopped for the night because the sun had set. Taking one of the stones there, he put it under his head and lay down to sleep. 12 He had a dream in which he saw a stairway resting on the earth, with its top reaching to heaven, and the angels of God were ascending and descending on it. 13 There above it stood the Lord, and he said: “I am the Lord, the God of your father Abraham and the God of Isaac. I will give you and your descendant the land on which you are lying. 14 Your descendants will be like the dust of the earth, and you will spread out to the west and to the east, to the north and to the south. All peoples on earth will be blessed through you and your offspring. 15 I am with you and will watch over you wherever you go, and I will bring you back to this land. I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you.”
God didn’t say “TODAY, this will happen.” He has so many promises waiting for me but I can’t gain them unless I have my own personal relationship with Him. I can’t ride on the coattails and relationship God has with my pastor, my friends, my loved ones, or my parents; just like Jacob couldn’t solely ride on his inheritance. I have to have my own relationship with God or I will not be able to be a part of God’s story! What God DID say is that He would not leave me until He has done what He has promised me.
My study bible says there are 3 steps to a right relationship with God (NIV Life Application Study Bible Copyright by Zodervan):
- Drop all excuses and self-defense
- Stop trying to hide from God
- Become convinced that God’s way is better than my way.
HELLO?!?!!?!? He sees and knows everything! He sees even into the recesses of my heart and thoughts that haven’t even formed. Who am I? God doesn’t fit into a schedule of my making.
Genesis 29:14-31 – Then Laban said to him, “You are my own flesh and blood.” After Jacob had stayed with him for a whole month, 15 Laban said to him, “Just because you are a relative of mine, should you work for me for nothing? Tell me what your wages should be.” 16 Now Laban had two daughters; the name of the older was Leah, and the name of the younger was Rachel. 17 Leah had weak eyes, but Rachel had a lovely figure and was beautiful. 18 Jacob was in love with Rachel and said, “I’ll work for you seven years in return for your younger daughter Rachel.” 19 Laban said, “It’s better that I give her to you than to some other man. Stay here with me.” 20 So Jacob served seven years to get Rachel, but they seemed like only a few days to him because of his love for her. 21 Then Jacob said to Laban, “Give me my wife. My time is completed, and I want to make love to her.” 22 So Laban brought together all the people of the place and gave a feast. 23 But when evening came, he took his daughter Leah and brought her to Jacob, and Jacob made love to her. 24 And Laban gave his servant Zilpah to his daughter as her attendant. 25 When morning came, there was Leah! So Jacob said to Laban, “What is this you have done to me? I served you for Rachel, didn’t I? Why have you deceived me?” 26 Laban replied, “It is not our custom here to give the younger daughter in marriage before the older one. 27 Finish this daughter’s bridal week; then we will give you the younger one also, in return for another seven years of work.” 28 And Jacob did so. He finished the week with Leah, and then Laban gave him his daughter Rachel to be his wife. 29 Laban gave his servant Bilhah to his daughter Rachel as her attendant. 30 Jacob made love to Rachel also, and his love for Rachel was greater than his love for Leah. And he worked for Laban another seven years. 31 When the Lord saw that Leah was not loved, he enabled her to conceive, but Rachel remained childless.
We cannot force God to be God. How do you think Jacob felt after being decieved, mocked, and worked to death? Probably a lot like you and I on days that seem to have no end and we are crying out, “Where are you, Lord??? Did you forget about me?” It’s time to stop and listen and walk out our salvation and purpose knowing that the plans God has for us is way beyond anything we could have ever imagined for ourselves!
You can read Genesis 28-36 about Jacob, Leah, Rachel, and their children at www.biblegateway.com. God is using them all as part of a glorious plan that will unfold! Join in the discussion by posting comments or questions below and let’s do this together!! #ReadtheBible #bgbg2 #BibleGateway #newbeginnings #Genesis
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Our only help should come from the Lord. He is always awake and ever watchful of His people. Anyone who puts their trust in Him knows that God preserves their sould from all evil. God knows all our comings and goings and has them under His plan and protection!