Days for me lately are pretty intense. Some days I want to throw my hands in the air and say, “ENOUGH ALREADY!”. Some days I want to hide in my room under the covers and wish the day away. Some times I just want to go without speaking a word to anyone. Some days I can’t stop shaking, and I can’t stop crying. Some days are so painful. And then I found out why. My deliverance is on the horizon and Satan wants me on the plank and jumping into shark infested waters before that happens.
Ephesians 6:12 – For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.
God speaks to me. ALL I HAVE TO DO IS LISTEN. Listen to His voice, slow down my thinking, and pay attention to who HE is telling me I am. I came to the realization that it isn’t all about me. God knows what He is doing and sometimes it’s none of my business. Even if it is horrible at the time, He works all things out for His good. The reason I fell apart from my family was MY choice. From my family, from my ex-husband, from my own children, all because I was the victim and I was stuck in Satan’s lies. THE LORD ALLOWED THINGS TO TAKE PLACE SO THAT IN THE END I WOULD GLORIFY HIM THROUGH IT. Before deliverance can take place, I have to take full responsibility for my OWN actions and the sins that I get stuck in, however they came to be.
Genesis 50:20 – You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.
The test hurts, and I was in a test for a long time. But it is now my TESTIMONY!!! Jesus will never forsake me in my weakness. He will never leave me. Even when I was making bad choices and near death, He was with me. It was the things I was holding onto that were keeping me sick.
This is what I hold onto today:
Romans 8:28-38 – And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified. What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all – how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died – more than that, who was raised to life – is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written: “For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.” NO, IN ALL THESE THINGS WE ARE MORE THAN CONQUERORS THROUGH HIM WHO LOVED US. FOR I AM CONVINCED THAT NEITHER DEATH NOR LIFE, NEITHER ANGELS NOR DEMONS, NEITHER THE PRESENT NOR THE FUTURE, NOR ANY POWERS, NEITHER HEIGHT NOR DEPTH, NOR ANYTHING ELSE IN ALL CREATION, WILL BE ABLE TO SEPARATE US FROM THE LOVE OF GOD THAT IS IN CHRIST JESUS OUR LORD.
On the days of deliverance, I am set free. I see the truth. I hear the Lord tell me that I have a purpose. That He was turning every bad circumstance in my life around for His good. He knew me before I was born and even knitted me in my mother’s womb (Psalm 139:13). He knew every bad thing that would happen to me and every bad choice I would make. I have a new mind-set and a new perspective, now. I learned to accept, not resent, pain and persecution. He has always known me and His love has never failed. It is IMPOSSIBLE to be separated from Christ!! When I choose to listen to HIM alone, I am then called out of my pit of shame, guilt, and remorse, and into the loving arms of the ONLY ONE who can save me from myself. Today I can say that I am GRATEFUL for ALL of it, the good, the bad, and the ugly!! I finally chose to put the past where it belongs and stop fighting a battle that was never mine to fight.
Today, I just heard the Holy Spirit say through someone I hold dear, “Don’t pray about that ANY MORE! Instead, THANK God for what it is you need! Thank Him for doing it! Prepare your mind to receive it!!! God is sending provision for every vision, healing to the sick, strength to the weak, love to the brokenhearted, encouragement to the discouraged! God is no longer just “GOING TO DO IT” but he’s doing it RIGHT NOW!!!!!”
I need to be reminded what Jesus, God’s ONLY SON who died on the cross for MY sins and defeated death and sits at the right hand of God the Father, can do. I need to be reminded that God knows how I feel and He wants me to have the desires of my heart.
I’m going to stand in the gateway and know that my army that is led by Jesus is right behind me, supporting me, encouraging me, and lifting me up and they are battling the unseen. The unseen is what I need to put all my faith in!!!!
Psalm 126:5 – Those who sow with tears will reap with songs of joy.
Thank you my Savior, for your daily provisions, for battling the unseen, for having my back, for following through on your promises, for dying a miserable death so I could live, for putting the right people in the right place at the right time for YOUR will to be done. Thank you in advance for the miracles that are going to take place in my life and for the moments I have yet to share with my beautiful sons. I praise You, even in this storm!
PRAYER FROM SHATTERING STRONGHOLDS
In the name of Jesus Christ, I bind ____’s body, soul and spirit to the will and purposes of God for his life. I bind ____’s mind will and emotions to the will of God. I bind him to the truth and to an awareness of the blood of Jesus. I bind his mind to the mind of Christ, that the very thoughts, feelings, and purposes of Jesus’ heart would be within his thoughts. I bind ____’s feet to the path of righteousness so that his steps would be steady and sure. I bind him to the work of the Cross with all of its mercy, grace, love forgiveness, and dying to self. I loose every old, wrong, ungodly pattern of thinking, attitude, idea, desire, belief, motivation, and denial from ____. I tear down, crush, smash, and destroy every lie associated with these things. I loose all stronghold thinking in his life that has been justifying and protecting hard feelings against anyone. I loose unforgiveness, fear, and distrust from him. I loose the power and effects of wrong agreements from ____. I loose deceptions and lies from ____’s mind, and I loose the effects and influences and wrong patterns of thinking that led to any wicked or ungodly soul ties he has with other people. I loose the confusion and blindness of the enemy from ____’s mind that has kept him from seeing the light of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I call forth every precious word of Scripture that has ever entered into his mind and ask that you would help him to remember them. I loose all generational-bondage thinking and grave clothes from him. I loose all effects and bondages from him that may have been caused by mistakes I have made. I crush, smash, and destroy generational bondages of any kind from mistakes made at any point between generations. I destroy them right here, right now. They will not bind and curse any more members of this family. Jesus has given me the Keys to do so. Thank you, Lord, for the TRUTH. AMEN.