Some things I have no control over. I lost everything when I relapsed; my house, my car, my marriage, several “friends”, a great job, and my soul. I am so grateful for the team of people that surrounded me as soon as I swallowed my pride and made it back across the threshold of Jacob’s Well Ministries. They not only surrounded me, but they also surrounded my circumstances, and they did for me what I could not do for myself.
You know, some days can be spent doing nothing but worrying about the details of my life, but that would cause me to neglect the specific areas in my life that are under my control such as my attitude and my responsibilities. I need to concentrate on what God would have me do and leave the rest to Him. In my transparency, I can tell you that turning it all over and relinquishing control is the hardest thing I have ever done, especially for someone like myself that doesn’t like gray and lives in black or white.
Pastor Tilghman told me once that God is the God of what I have, of what I lost, and of what I have left. That’s HUGE. Big revelation there. He’s GOT THIS!!! God knows all; even when my faith is small, He will make a way.
Ezekial 37:4-7 (NIV) – Then He said to me, “Prophesy to these bones and say to them, ‘Dry bones, hear the word of the Lord!’ 5 This is what the Sovereign Lord says to these bones: I will make breath enter you, and you will come to life. 6 I will attach tendons to you and make flesh come upon you and cover you with skin; I will put breath in you, and you will come to life. Then you will know that I am the Lord.” 7 So I prophesied as I was commanded. And as I was prophesying, there was a noise, a rattling sound, and the bones came together, bone to bone.
Ezekial had little faith the the dry bones would come to life, but he prophesied anyway. I love how specific he was in his request of these bones. God wants specifics. We have not because we ask not. Some things that are out of our control seem too big for the Awesome Creator of the ENTIRE universe. How insane is that? It’s time to start speaking life into the dry bones, into every single situation that seems hopeless and completely out of control. It’s time to get real precise with God and tell Him exactly what our hearts desires are. He already knows the thoughts that race out of control in my head, so why do I attempt to keep it all a secret? He is the God of ALL and His love for me is never ending.
Psalm 104:29-30 (NIV) – When you hide your face, they are terrified; when you take away their breath, they die and return to the dust. 30 When you send your Spirit, they are created, and you renew the face of the ground.