Revelation 3:14-22 – These are the words of the Amen, the faithful and true witnesses, the ruler of God’s creation. 15 I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! 16 So, because you are lukewarm – neither hot nor cold – I am about to spit you out of my mouth. 17 You say, ‘I am rich; I have acquired wealth and do not need a thing.’ But you do not realize that you are wretched, pitiful, poor, blind and naked. 18 I counsel you to buy from me gold refined in the fire, so you can become rich; and white clothes to wear, so you can cover your shameful nakedness; and salve to put on your eyes, so you can see. 19 Those whom I love I rebuke and discipline. So be earnest and repent. 20 Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person, and they with me. 21 To the one who is victorious, I will give the right to sit with me on my throne, just as I was victorious and sat down with my Father on his throne. 22 Whoever has ears, let them hear what the Spirit says to the churches.
I want ears to hear. I don’t want to leave Jesus standing out in the cold, knocking away at my heart. I was lukewarm most of my adult life. I straddled the fence between believing and not believing all day, every day. I sat up there and made camp. I hung out and built myself a ledge for support, even had a little umbrella to protect me from the elements. I could see both sides, but I sure didn’t want to choose. I wanted to be “out of the box”. I wanted to think freely, live freely, speak freely, support any and all causes; homosexuality, abortion, tree huggers, dope fiends, and fence jumpers. I didn’t really stand for anything, so I fell for everything. I was SELF satisfied and not self-controlled. I rallied around every cause, just to say that I wasn’t in a box and that I was a supporter of the WORLD!!! Coming from the post from the other day, stepping out of the box is freeing, if Jesus is the one pulling you out, not so you can rally around ignorance and unbelief. Being out of the box spiritually is the most freeing thing of all when the decisions made are based on biblical principles.
But there I was, on the fence. Stuck up there, birds landing on me, squirrels passing me by, enjoying every minute of it…for WHAT?!?!?! So I could stay confused and check out of my life anytime I wanted to without feeling guilty. Guilt to me is knowing that I did something not right, feeling deep in my spirit that my choice was off in a way. It’s regretting the sin, but doing nothing to repent. It then becomes an excuse. ANOTHER EXCUSE. I was all the things listed in the verses above. I thought everything I DID have was gotten by me. I was perfectly content in any and all circumstances, even living on a porch in the sweltering summer with no food and only drugs to keep my mind numb from the guilt and shame. Discipline is for my good. It comes with love and teaches me to not go back and do the thing that makes me feel guilty anymore like a dog goes back to it’s vomit.
Proverbs 26:1 – As a dog returns to its vomit, so fools repeat their folly.
Oh, I was a fool. I was the worst kind. I don’t want to be lukewarm anymore. I want to jump off my perch, leave the squirrels and the birds, and run in the green grass to my Savior! He knows ME and He cares for me! He forgives me and He loves me! I’m ok today being Hot or Cold. I’m ok with supporting my opinions based on biblical truths. I don’t judge anyone, I love them for who they are what they stand for. Hey, it’s better to stand for something than to fall for anything and today I stand for Jesus Christ! I love others because He first loved me! Today I want to stand for righteousness. I desire spiritual treasures, not earthly rewards. I want to see the Truth, even when it hurts. Letting Jesus through the door of my heart was my only hope for lasting fulfillment. No more fence straddling for me!!