I was having a conversation the other night with my dear friend and out of seemingly nowhere came into my spirit a memory from YEARS ago, before Christ reigned my life. I was having some issues, as always, and placing blame on everyone else around me. I had a sense of entitlement that would send me spinning into outer space if anyone had anything to say about what I was doing and how I was doing it. People letting me in on my very own secrets that were keeping me sick made me hot, and I wanted no part of it. This woman said to me, “Julie, if one person says that you look like a duck, walk like a duck, quack like a duck, and that you are a duck, you probably aren’t a duck. However, if two or more people tell you that you look like a duck, walk like a duck, quack like a duck, and that you are a duck, you probably are a duck.” I walked away from that woman and vowed never to speak to her again. How dare she?!?! That memory had my friend and I splitting our pants from laughter this past evening and I pondered why the Lord had allowed it into my spirit when it really had nothing to do with our conversation.
The very next day, I was given a piece to a puzzle that I didn’t look for, didn’t search for, didn’t pray for, didn’t seek. It was handed to me and I saw, up close and personal, my old self in other people. I saw jealousy, discord, anger, blame, and strife seep out of two people that I know and love who have CHOSEN their own way.
I saw justification from each of them toward one another about how they were feeling, not only toward me, but toward people I love. I saw their refusal to see the truth and all of it saddened me. For a few days I have been questioning my calling because of these two people. I have been seeing and hearing what they have been saying and the enemy used it to attack my mind. I would take my thoughts captive to Christ only to have them come back again. In my attempts to block it all out, it was handed back to me, thankfully this time for revelation. A chain of events took place that kick started this whole new mentality, and it all happened in the course of a few hours. First, Brother Asa said, “We cannot change the seasons in life, we can not pick when winter will come; however, we can change ourselves and our reactions to how we handle the winters until spring comes. Will it make you stronger, better, and wiser?” This is mere hours after the strange memory. Then comes the piece to the puzzle which landed directly in my lap, followed by the revelation that came to my as I drove down the road toward work. I realized that I chose to allow these two people in my life, because of their own choices and their unwillingness to see the truth, to push me into a spiritual corner where I began to question myself. THEN, God spoke, “Julie, two people, directly and indirectly, are telling you that you look like a duck, walk like a duck, quack like a duck, and that you are a duck. Do you believe them?” I thought long and hard about it and then God spoke again. He said, “I didn’t call you to be liked, I called you to be like me. I called you to be different for MY glory and MY service, not yours. Julie, you ARE a duck, now fly south for the winter because I made you to fly because you are free in spirit. You are no longer bound by this winter. Wait patiently for spring and let everything roll like water off your back.”
Galatians 5:1-8 (NASB) – It was for freedom that Christ set us free; therefore keep standing firm and do not be subject again to a yoke of slavery. 2 Behold I, Paul, say to you that if you receive circumcision, Christ will be of no benefit to you. 3 And I testify again to every man who receives circumcision, that he is under obligation to keep the whole Law. 4 You have been severed from Christ, you who are seeking to be justified by law; you have fallen from grace. 5 For we through the Spirit, by faith, are waiting for the hope of righteousness. 6 For in Christ Jesus neither circumcision nor uncircumcision means anything, but faith working through love. 7 You were running well; who hindered you from obeying the truth? 8 This persuasion did not come from Him who calls you.
For the first time in my life, I KNOW that I am walking in truth and spirit. I know that things I am doing are not of me. I know that I am in the center of God’s will for my life. I know that I stand for something today. The enemy is sneaky, but I see that it’s my choice to change myself and make winter more bearable. It’s time to move on. It’s time to fly free. And it’s time to let people be people and let God be God. I always cut in on my own race, but not this time. No more blame games, pity parties, justifiable anger, or discord. I’m ready for spring! I’m a duck!