Life is a lesson in decisions. Bad decisions seem to push us back a level or two and sometimes people don’t even make it back into the light. Good decisions push us in the right direction at times, but them come haters and scoffers and even more decisions on how to act appropriately to overcome the obstacles. What I have learned is that regardless of the decision made, taking ownership is the number one key to moving forward into the next choice. Sometimes I feel as if God as put a huge written test in front of my face which leads me on a scavenger hunt of sorts. Each question takes me down a different path when a choice is made. The only way I can make it to the next question is to get the first one right. If I get it wrong, I am not condemned for it, but I learn quickly that the path I went down was toxic for me. The only way for me to get back on course is to admit my wrong, take complete and full ownership, remain patient in my consequence, and move on, but FIRST comes full surrender and acknowledgment of MY part in the decisions that led up to whatever crisis I find myself in. It’s all about choices and the longer I hide in the dark instead of exposing myself in the Light of Truth, I will stay where I am, constantly floundering around looking for purpose and grasping at straws, attempting to convince everyone around me that it is all OK and it’s someone else’s fault. THAT, my friends, is exhausting. It’s also becoming exhausting to watch.
Choices are based primarily on pride and pride is the downfall of every man, including myself. So many times I have tried with all my might to convince others that my way was right, that it was God’s will, etc, etc when in all reality, I may have been going in a great direction, but I still had yet to speak the truth about what got me there in the first place. It’s the finest point on the tip of denial. I am so guilty that it makes it hard to breathe, but today I see and I repent.
All I would ask of anyone, is to lay aside the pride, take FULL ownership of the small decisions and compromises that led you astray, and walk in the Light of Truth. Ask God to reveal to you where on the test you made the wrong choice and He will be faithful. The longer I live in denial, pride, arrogance, and self-will, the longer I stay stuck in pain. I’m preaching to myself. The truth hurts, but it sets the captives free.
John 8:32 (AMP) – And you will know the Truth, and the Truth will set you free.