Consume Me


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The past few nights in this windy city of Amarillo, Jason and I have been blessed by the fire that crackles and sparks in our beautiful fireplace.  No television to turn our attention away from a marvelous act of nature, no distractions to keep us from watching the flames as they soar high into the chimney in an array of colors from yellow to orange to blue.  No phones, no lights…nothing but the sound of our breathing and the awe-inspiring view of the all-consuming fire. I watched that fire last night dry those pieces of wood until they fell under their own weight and became nothing but dry ash on the bottom of the floor and I thought of God.

God is referred to in the Bible as an all-consuming fire, we should be worshipping Him with holy fear and awe (Hebrews 12:28-29) but we continue to get muddied up by the ways of the world.  Like I mentioned in my video last night (go back and watch it if you missed it) that we get so entangled in ourselves and in our own sin and selfishness that we forget that we are supposed to be the light in the room for others.  We lead by example and we follow the example of Christ.  There is no other way.  There is no sin that is ok for now!!  We have to call things forth and start driving out the things that are taking out our friends and loved ones with the Word of God and stop counseling them!  The Word is a double-edged sword that divides our soul and spirit.

God is an all-consuming fire. 

When you take a look at what fire does to wood, imagine what it can do to our soul if we let it.  I was thinking of Ezekiel last night in the valley of dry bones.  What made the bones dry?  It doesn’t say, but the bones represented the people of Israel and their sin…more than likely after the jealous, all-consuming fire of God swept through just as Moses prophesied to them (Deut 4:23-24).  What makes us think that we are guarded from God’s judgement just because we (as a society) have conditioned ourselves to believe that it is ok to let things slide to the point of our eternal doom?  The grace of Jesus is NOT greasy and cannot be mocked.

Because I have a pyrotechnic-wanna-be husband (lol), the fire in our fireplace last night reached epic heights and temperatures as it dried out that wood. The air around it became magnetized almost as the overwhelming heat rose through the chimney. It was the most beautiful sight to behold and I thought of the living water of Christ.  It covers us and washes away our filth that comes from the spirit of judgement and the spirit of burning (Isaiah 4:4).  We are baptized in water for repentance but the Holy Spirit of Christ will baptize us with a NEW fire…one that was atoned for by His death.  And THAT needs to stay lit…and the only way for the Holy Spirit fire to stay lit is for us to continue to walk in it and show others the way to their own salvation. We have to keep setting the example to follow and become more like Christ, DAILY dying to ourselves for the sake of the building up of the Kingdom of God!

Let God’s all-consuming fire melt away the things that are troubling you, the things that are keeping you in bondage, the things that you refuse to speak out because it is so shameful…let it BURN away and then speak to your own dry bones and let them live again NEW then don’t stay quiet against the things of this world…you were brought here for a reason and a purpose…SHINE YOUR LIGHT…your dry bones can live…and so can THEIRS…Open your mouth and speak the truth…which is the Word of God.

Ezekiel 37:1-14 – The Lord took hold of me, and I was carried away by the Spirit of the Lord to a valley filled with bones. He led me all around among the bones that covered the valley floor. They were scattered everywhere across the ground and were completely dried out. Then he asked me, “Son of man, can these bones become living people again?”

“O Sovereign Lord,” I replied, “you alone know the answer to that.”

Then he said to me, “Speak a prophetic message to these bones and say, ‘Dry bones, listen to the word of the Lord! This is what the Sovereign Lord says: Look! I am going to put breath into you and make you live again! I will put flesh and muscles on you and cover you with skin. I will put breath into you, and you will come to life. Then you will know that I am the Lord.’”

So I spoke this message, just as he told me. Suddenly as I spoke, there was a rattling noise all across the valley. The bones of each body came together and attached themselves as complete skeletons. Then as I watched, muscles and flesh formed over the bones. Then skin formed to cover their bodies, but they still had no breath in them.

Then he said to me, “Speak a prophetic message to the winds, son of man. Speak a prophetic message and say, ‘This is what the Sovereign Lord says: Come, O breath, from the four winds! Breathe into these dead bodies so they may live again.’”

10 So I spoke the message as he commanded me, and breath came into their bodies. They all came to life and stood up on their feet—a great army.

11 Then he said to me, “Son of man, these bones represent the people of Israel. They are saying, ‘We have become old, dry bones—all hope is gone. Our nation is finished.’ 12 Therefore, prophesy to them and say, ‘This is what the Sovereign Lordsays: O my people, I will open your graves of exile and cause you to rise again. Then I will bring you back to the land of Israel. 13 When this happens, O my people, you will know that I am the Lord. 14 I will put my Spirit in you, and you will live again and return home to your own land. Then you will know that I, the Lord, have spoken, and I have done what I said. Yes, the Lord has spoken!’”

Matthew 3:11-12 – “As for me, I baptize you with water for repentance, but He who is coming after me is mightier than I, and I am not fit to remove His sandals; He will baptize you with the Holy Spirit and fire. “His winnowing fork is in His hand, and He will thoroughly clear His threshing floor; and He will gather His wheat into the barn, but He will burn up the chaff with unquenchable fire.”


God Is Not Interested In My Excuses…


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Lord, help our generation…remind us that you cannot be fooled.  We cannot show up on a Sunday morning to look good for all our friends then get more excited about a touchdown than we do about a soul coming to know You and surrendering all.  We jump up and down and give high fives for things that will pass away while You and eternity stand by with open arms.  You see all.  You know every excuse.  And You are not interested as we continue to reinvent ourselves at the cost of ourselves as we wander through this life unchanged and unwilling to see the truth.

All things can be done with the very thing in our hand; we do not need to reinvent the wheel in order for You to take us to new heights. Help us see that we can do nothing without You.  And if we feel as if all has been gotten by us in our pursuit, then humble us, Lord.

Help us to not get stuck in complacency, but to always walk in desperate obedience. 

Take us to our Promised Land and loose our excuses from our minds. Get us out of our downward spiral of always seeking something shiny and new instead of Your will for us. You have shown us time and again in Your Word that you can do much with little, and that our grocery list of canned excuses and fresh fears are no match for You!

You are not interested in our excuses; You can start with the very thing that we hold in near.  We don’t need a majority vote.  We don’t need a thousand “friends” on Facebook to remind us that we are going in the right direction and that accepts us.  We don’t need an army of make believe people backing us in our pursuit of Your will.  All we need is to stop waiting and start walking.  Hesitation is only our limitation. Show us our talent that can be used for You and keep us from burying it in the dirt as we step out in faith and realize that we can live in the dream and not behind a TV set watching an overpaid athlete make a score while someone on the street is dying for a piece of bread.

One foot in front of the other…one mindset changed daily…one celebration of a soul won each minute…no more mundane…no more sideline living…NO MORE EXCUSES!

Ephesians 4:1-4
But Moses protested again, “What if they won’t believe me or listen to me? What if they say, ‘The Lord never appeared to you’?”
Then the Lord asked him, “What is that in your hand?”
“A shepherd’s staff,” Moses replied.
“Throw it down on the ground,” the Lord told him. So Moses threw down the staff, and it turned into a snake! Moses jumped back.
Then the Lord told him, “Reach out and grab its tail.” So Moses reached out and grabbed it, and it turned back into a shepherd’s staff in his hand.

You’re Almost There…


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What inside of you needs to be birthed?  What vision?  What dream has God given you to further the Kingdom that you keep telling God is for someone else?

You’re Almost There

The Holy Spirit put something inside of Mary that she not have conceived for herself.  He imparted on her the Living Word of God (John 1:1-5) and inspired into her a hope for eternity. How many times do you think she wanted to give up?  To throw her hands up in defeat?  To say, “This is to hard”?  Yet, each day, God manifested in the physical the dream that she could no longer deny as she grew daily with the promise and fulfilled her purpose.

You’re Almost There

You constantly talk yourself out of the one thing that will set captives free and you release yourself from the call; but, if you are new in Christ, then you are chosen (Matthew 22:14)  to hear the voice of God and obey. A willing heart on this lonely road of walking in blind faith is all God requires of you.  The person next to you and their opinion is of no matter. Trust the Father to provide for your every need and provision.  Everything worth having costs something.

You’re Almost There

The wait is unending, beloved, and the pain of THIS labor is excruciating, I know.  But God will never leave you or forsake you (Hebrews 13:5).  You are giving birth to the hope for people you may never meet and leaving a legacy for eternity.

A new life…an answered prayer…a living dream…the end of  a journey signifying the beginning of something else…death must flee…

You’re Almost There

Dream big, my friend! It wouldn’t be your dream unless God gave it to you and He who began a good work in you will see it to completion…(Philippians 1:6)

You’re Almost There

Jeremiah 31:31-34 – 

“The day is coming,” says the Lord, “when I will make a new covenant with the people of Israel and Judah. 32 This covenant will not be like the one I made with their ancestors when I took them by the hand and brought them out of the land of Egypt. They broke that covenant, though I loved them as a husband loves his wife,” says the Lord.

33 “But this is the new covenant I will make with the people of Israel after those days,” says the Lord. “I will put my instructions deep within them, and I will write them on their hearts. I will be their God, and they will be my people. 34 And they will not need to teach their neighbors, nor will they need to teach their relatives, saying, ‘You should know the Lord.’ For everyone, from the least to the greatest, will know me already,” says the Lord. “And I will forgive their wickedness, and I will never again remember their sins.”

Take Heed…


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Just a normal night in this cowboy town as people fight in lines at stores to grab hold of last minute gifts.  Tensions are high and people are in a hurry to get everywhere but all the while getting nowhere.  The Christmas spirit is lost in the crowd of materialism and self-absorption.  It’s a dangerous game that continues to intensify as the years go on without Christ at the center of it all.  Our world is in a perpetual state of unbelief and we wear shirts that say “I Want To Believe” and those shirts are talking about a big huge guy in a red suit and not the Savior of the world.

So picture this…we are just driving along minding our business and laughing about our day as we traverse through the hustle and bustle of fast paced drivers completely unaware of their surroundings as they take home screaming kids who are on in their own lane headed straight for the “Naughty List” before they even get home to their own driveway.  It is EPIC to watch and see the movement in this seemingly orchestrated crescendo as we circle the mall…then it happens…a near inevitable crash as we come upon a young gentleman on a skateboard in the middle of this cacophony.

Something inside of me says, “Warn him.”  We obeyed…begrudgingly…and rolled the window down to have a conversation with this teenage rebel without a cause. What happened next was the personification of the world and its attitude toward prophecy in this day and age.

Our words, “Son, you might want to consider getting yourself a vest. We almost hit you because we couldn’t see you in the dark.”

The young man replied, “People can see me just fine when they shine their lights in my direction.”


“But young man, when lights are shining at us from the opposite direction, you are completely unseen in the shadow and you are traveling in the middle of someone else’s lane.”

The young man full of his infinite wisdom decided at that point to put his fingers in his ear and proceeded to yell at us…”BLAH BLAH BLAH!!!  This is how I do it every single day!  You can’t stop me from doing what I want…I am NOT breaking the law!!”

So off we drove, the warning was sounded and it fell silently on deaf ears…and we were saddened.  I have three questions for you today…

1) Are you stuffing your ears because you are ok being in someone else’s lane and riding the wind behind folks in the shadow?

2) Are you the one screaming at the one sounding the alarm because this is how you always do things, you are perfectly content in your mess, and you don’t care to hear that you may be in the wrong?

3) Are you even willing to sound the alarm if you see a brother or sister acting foolishly to the point of their eventual, avoidable PAIN?

What is your excuse?  BLAH BLAH BLAH…yeah…that’s what Jesus wants to hear…said NOBODY…

Dear friend, please take your fingers out of your ears, listen to the voice that is convicting, turn from your ways, then help others…PLEASE…don’t be afraid to speak TRUTH in LOVE…

Ezekial 33:1-10 – Once again a message came to me from the Lord: “Son of man, give your people this message: ‘When I bring an army against a country, the people of that land choose one of their own to be a watchman. When the watchman sees the enemy coming, he sounds the alarm to warn the people. Then if those who hear the alarm refuse to take action, it is their own fault if they die. They heard the alarm but ignored it, so the responsibility is theirs. If they had listened to the warning, they could have saved their lives. But if the watchman sees the enemy coming and doesn’t sound the alarm to warn the people, he is responsible for their captivity. They will die in their sins, but I will hold the watchman responsible for their deaths.’

“Now, son of man, I am making you a watchman for the people of Israel. Therefore, listen to what I say and warn them for me. If I announce that some wicked people are sure to die and you fail to tell them to change their ways, then they will die in their sins, and I will hold you responsible for their deaths. But if you warn them to repent and they don’t repent, they will die in their sins, but you will have saved yourself.

10 “Son of man, give the people of Israel this message: You are saying, ‘Our sins are heavy upon us; we are wasting away! How can we survive?’ 11 As surely as I live, says the Sovereign Lord, I take no pleasure in the death of wicked people. I only want them to turn from their wicked ways so they can live. Turn! Turn from your wickedness, O people of Israel! Why should you die?”



What Dreams May Come…


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Amazing grace, how sweet the sound, that saved a wretch like me. I once was lost but now I’m found, was blind but now I see.  Hallelujah! Christ is risen from the grave! Hallelujah! Christ is risen from the grave!  It was grace that taught my heart to fear and grace my fears relieved. How precious did that grace appear the moment I believed.  Hallelujah! Christ is risen from the grave.  Hallelujah! Christ is risen from the grave! Oh death, where is your sting? Oh fear, where is your power?  The mighty King of Kings has disarmed you!! Delivered and redeemed…eternal life is ours…Oh praise His Name…FOREVER!

Those dreams that haunt in the night, that remind her of where she came from, that sinister, evil laugh that is heard in the dark as desperate prayers go out from a hot, sweaty mess of an individual who has cried her last tear of the night in reliving a past through nightmares of epic proportion.

That’s me.  That’s the enemy trying to steal, kill, and destroy what God is building.

The dreams still come…

But God…is Light and there is none beside Him.  Where He is casts no shadow and He is in me so there is no darkness that can hide from Him. I will not be faint, no weapon formed against me shall prosper, nothing shall come near my tent. No force can harm me.  I fly far above you, the enemy that is under my feet.  I soar on wings like eagles.  I have strength that is made new every day because I trust in the Lord and wait on Him.  I will run and not grow weary from this onslaught in my mind…

The dreams still come…

The love of my life and my husband also bears my burdens and where two or more are gathered, God is in their midst.  Nothing that is not of God is not welcome.  We work together as one body and under one God.  Thank you, Lord, that my husband counts me as partner…it increases my faith. We have love and faith for our marriage and for you Lord and our home is an open door for Light and love and no darkness shall live here…

The dreams still come…

The joy of the Lord is my strength, every single day with God is new and set apart for me. I am chosen, a daughter of the King of Kings, robed in garments washed of my past.  I am not isolated because I never stand alone. I will not grow weary, no matter how long the days because I trust God for every provision and for every result and the blessings are abounding and nothing from hell can stop them.

They have no power…

Because of cross, I am a new creation.  Nothing can separate me from God’s amazing love. Everything that attempts to come against me when my mind is at rest has to submit to the Lord of Lord for He disarmed the things of the night. ALL powers are made subject to Christ that lives in me.  I am recreated…delivered…redeemed…set free…my Master is the Maker of the Wind and I live for, in, and from victory and Light.  No more fear, no more questions, no more doubt, no more discouragement.

The I AM is with me….

Oh, praise the One who paid my debt and raised this life up from the dead…JESUS

(James 1:17; Isaiah 40:31; Galatians 6:2; Colossians 2:15; 2 Corinthians 5:17; Romans 8:38-39)

The Great Divide


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Palo Dura Canyon, a place not to be forgotten, a place where lessons were learned, a place where one can behold the beauty formed by the storms of long ago.  “All things new”…that is what God said.  He moves us out of complacency on a daily basis and asks us to step precariously on the edge of our existence and trust Him in all things.  God puts in us at dirt crossroads the opportunity to grow, to live, to love…but are we standing at the foot of the expanse on the canyon floor or do we dare to dream to climb the wonder of God?  Do we look up with arms folded at the beautiful scar in the earth and tell God, “No thanks…I’m just fine where I am.”  Or do we trust Him with the climb?  Do we trust Him with ourselves?  Do we really believe in Him and what He alone can do for us?  Do we trust Him with our lives and the lives of those closest to us?

The devil likes to whisper as we walk along a tiny brook in a desert with no water that we will drown when the rain makes the brook flood into a torrential raging river, but the devil doesn’t know that the sound of that raging water calms the storm in me.  The rain brings the water…the blessings…the life that sustains me.  The Great Divide is no divide at all…it is a challenge in the direction toward HOPE, giving homage to all who came before me.

Do not be afraid.  Climb high.  If God is for you, who can be against you?

Psalm 91 – Those who live in the shelter of the Most High
will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
This I declare about the Lord:
He alone is my refuge, my place of safety;
he is my God, and I trust him.
For he will rescue you from every trap
and protect you from deadly disease.
He will cover you with his feathers.
He will shelter you with his wings.
His faithful promises are your armor and protection.
Do not be afraid of the terrors of the night,
nor the arrow that flies in the day.
Do not dread the disease that stalks in darkness,
nor the disaster that strikes at midday.
Though a thousand fall at your side,
though ten thousand are dying around you,
these evils will not touch you.
Just open your eyes,
and see how the wicked are punished.

If you make the Lord your refuge,
if you make the Most High your shelter,
10 no evil will conquer you;
no plague will come near your home.
11 For he will order his angels
to protect you wherever you go.
12 They will hold you up with their hands
so you won’t even hurt your foot on a stone.
13 You will trample upon lions and cobras;
you will crush fierce lions and serpents under your feet!

14 The Lord says, “I will rescue those who love me.
I will protect those who trust in my name.
15 When they call on me, I will answer;
I will be with them in trouble.
I will rescue and honor them.
16 I will reward them with a long life
and give them my salvation.”


The Voice on the Wind…


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The sky stretches as far as the eye can see as the sun marches across the vastness of the blue, indescribable, awesome deep. The winds are relentless and unstoppable as they roar through this plain barren of vegetation during this beautiful fall month ahead of a changing season.

God…speak to me…I am listening…

Psalm 23 resonates in my spirit as I take in this new landscape and new heavenly view of my destiny.

The Lord is my shepherd, my guide, and my friend. In this new season of life, this new time of wandering, I am not lost. I hear the voice of the Shepherd and I follow Him across this plain into places my eyes have never before seen.

Lord, I have never been this way before…please tell me what I am here to see.

I shall not want for anything…for you, God, sustain me and you provide for our every need in every way. We are at peace in your presence alone and we trust you and the way ahead. You make us to lie down in the green pastures of your safety. Thank you, Lord, for your protection as we rest in you before the journey to the world where we are called. You lead us beside the still waters that give us life and help us bear fruit in all seasons, even this new season of joy and love. Thank you for restoring our souls, for giving us a hope and a future that we cannot fathom or imagine. We are here, in this chosen place…at this chosen time, appointed to do your work, Lord. We will follow you anywhere you lead, even when we cannot see the path clearly for we are always on your path of righteousness. We fear no evil, Lord, even though we are daily in the shadow of death in a fallen world that has forgotten you. You are with us wherever we go. You never send us anywhere you have not already been. Your rod and your staff, O Shepherd, they comfort us in times of discipline and training. All your word is used to lead us always in the right direction no matter how hard the journey ahead. We love to dine at your table and eat of your goodness, God. Not everyone will understand our vision and our call but we hear you loud and clear. We are your servants and I can’t believe you speak to us so freely.

We love to hear you say our name…

We are anointed for the work you have called us to do on this plain in this place for such a time as this. We are living in the overflow of your countless blessings and our cups run over in the love, peace, and prosperity. Guide us, Lord, as we do not grow weary in doing good and showing mercy to your numbers forgotten as you show us mercy new every morning. We dwell in your house and offer our own house to you. Do with us as you choose. Your will, Lord, be done. We are your witnesses in this world.

Yes, no longer bound by the past…no longer lost and confused…We are no longer running from…we are always running to…

We hear your voice on this wind…you whisper to us… “Amarillo by morning”…

Awake…from the Deep Sleep


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I found this in my Bible yesterday…written on an inconspicuous piece of paper…right on time for this changing season! 

Are you awake to the things of God? Has God put you in a deep sleep to pull out of you the very thing that you didn’t even know you needed? Is God blessing you with CHOICE today? Everything with God is a heart issue. God spoke things into existence then inspire that which he created in His image with breath of life. We have the ability to reflect God’s character and His glory to all we come in contact with. I will NEVER forget the day that I woke up from my deep sleep to the things of God, to purpose, to understanding. Our generation is a sleeping one. The world is distracted cannot see the signs and wonders of heaven’s creation because they are wide awake…but still dead asleep.

Everyone has been gifted for honoring and serving God but so many in this world are using their gifts in perversion, relying solely on the flesh to find a mate, thinking only of finances, attraction, and the things of the the heart that do not satisfy. Are you ashamed to do what is right and honorable in the sight of God and man? I want to be unashamed, using the choices God gives me to eat from the tree of Life. I want God to light the path ahead of me to show me signs and seasons, just as He does to all on earth if only they would see. God created light to govern changing seasons, so what light do I shine in this beautiful, blessed season ahead of me? Is my light powerful enough to push people that will come across my path out of their current season and into their new one?

Genesis 2:18-22 – Then the Lord God said, “It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper who is just right for him.” 19 So the Lord God formed from the ground all the wild animals and all the birds of the sky. He brought them to the man to see what he would call them, and the man chose a name for each one. 20 He gave names to all the livestock, all the birds of the sky, and all the wild animals. But still there was no helper just right for him. 21 So the Lord God caused the man to fall into a deep sleep. While the man slept, the Lord God took out one of the man’s ribs and closed up the opening. 22 Then the Lord God made a woman from the rib, and he brought her to the man.

God put Adam into a deep sleep. Why? To birth out of him the very thing he didn’t even realize he needed. God, I am grateful for the helper you have molded me into being. I was perfectly content and complacent in being alone but you saw otherwise. I am grateful that you have brought me a man that is comparable to me…and I to him. Thank you for waking us both up out of a deep sleep, and for forming us daily to be one with you but also to each other. Thank you for equipping us each individually with gifts and lights that we can use to shine into others. Thank you for changing my season, Lord. We are created perfect for one another. Help us to always resist temptation and bring our thoughts to you. Thank you, Lord, for CHOICE. We want our obedience to be true and never hollow. There are so many things on the horizon, decisions that need to be made, roads to travel that will become our home. God, I don’t ever want to hear the words from You, “Who told you that?” just like you asked Adam and Eve in the garden when they realized they were naked and ashamed before you. I want to always be able to say… “Lord, You told me that…and I stand in freedom and unashamed and beautiful before you.” I want to come before you Lord…blameless. I don’t want to be separated from you because I act on my own desires. I can’t hide from you, Lord.

All God has to do is speak for things to be heard and be commanded into action.


His deepest desire is to be in fellowship with us. On the third day, the number of completion, God spoke into existence FRUIT and the tree that yields fruit…the tree of life…the TREE…the CROSS. And on the 4th day, God said, “Let the lights appear in the sky to separate the day from the night and let them be a sign to mark the seasons, days, and years.”

The season is changing, the time is here, and God is SPEAKING us out of our deep sleep…

Affirmation Nation


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Why are we always seeking that which is always there?

I have found myself running on the heels of a phantom discouragement, a fleeting emotion that is not really there but that sends chills down my spine none the less. A moment when nothing negative is being said but there are no words being said at all. It is a silent space of wonder that is taken up and filled up by my own thoughts of insecurity. Since when did I forget how to encourage myself? Since when did I get so caught up in my curiosity of what others were thinking that I forgot who Jesus says that I am. What about the gentle whisper in that moment of empty space that tells me how loved and adored I am, just the way I was made?

What about the times when others are getting praise for the very think that I am working like mad to attain? In walks in lousy jealousy.

1 Samuel 18:6-8 – When the victorious Israelite army was returning home after David had killed the Philistine, women from all the towns of Israel came out to meet King Saul. They sang and danced for joy with tambourines and cymbals. 7 This was their song: “Saul has killed his thousands, and David his ten thousands!” 8 This made Saul very angry. “What’s this?” he said. “They credit David with ten thousands and me with only thousands. Next they’ll be making him their king!” 9 So from that time on Saul kept a jealous eye on David.

Saul allowed the praises of David to become the demise of his own confidence. Where does this come from in our own lives and why? Saul was already chosen, yet he allowed one small thing to offend him to the point of no return. Why? It drove him away from who he was called to be. Why? He was already the tallest, the most handsome, the best looking, anointed and obviously blinded to his own worth because of WHY?

Here is the thought that God just smacked me with. There are people in my life (and yours) who think I (we) hung the moon, who compliment me all the time, who love me for who I am. But I choose to listen to the wrong reports because the group of people I desperately want to hear it from seem to be light years away. The last things I heard them say broke my heart into pieces, so why am I holding onto that as if it is still true when the real truth is being spoken to me daily? So what that it goes unnoticed by that other camp? Who cares that they don’t seem to care? What difference is it that they don’t want to see my change, know who I am, what I stand for, and where I have been and where I am going?

Who I could become hinges on this very thing. If God is for me, who can be against me? I’m not optimistic because of the things I see and feel, I am optimistic because of who God is, what He says, and what He has already done. People DO NOT MATTER.

Forgiveness…please reign free…in me

The apology I may never get…doesn’t matter. The affirmation that may never come…it doesn’t matter. It all rides on the wings of hope and trust and the truth that I do hear that I now choose to make my reality. What happened to Saul after this jealous rage? He was tormented from that moment on by a spirit that God allowed. God’s chosen and anointed…now FALLEN. Why? We all seek and starve for genuine friendship…unpolished, unfiltered, white-knuckled-truth-bearing, this-is-what’s-really-happening friendship and relationship and we shy away from it when our ears are no longer being tickled and when the truth comes on the heels of the affirmation we wanted (and got) but we listen the lies in our head over the very thing we sought in the first place.

Wow, Lord. Help me always to rest in YOUR truth, to know who I am, to never take for granted the friendship and love that I have been graced with and that is setting me free from bondage. Thank you, Lord, for the light, for the hope, and for the affirmation that comes straight from heaven.

The Four…


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Four Choices, Four Results, Four Consequences…which one are you making?

1 Peter 5:8-9a – Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour. Stand firm against him, and be strong in your faith.

Last night I sat in the arena of life watching a dramatic event unfold, one that happens everyday if we only had eyes to see the supernatural spiritual warfare of God. It was my desire to step into the arena but God had me watch for purpose. Four souls in this arena stood against the roaring lion and what happened took my breath away. Each one had a decision to make tht would affect the hours and days and years to come. All of them had the same vantage point, for each of them came from the same background, a life of selfishness, addiciton, pride, rebellion, strife, and dissatisfaction that nearly led them all to death, each one previously bound by shame, regret, and guilt for the times before when they had faced this very same lion and failed in their past mistakes. Last night, the decision of one of these four set in motion a chain of events that would call on each of them to stand on the edge of decision surrounding life abundant or death to the spirit. It’s amazing that CHOICE in each moment of decision can define the outcome within only a matter of time. Which one are you?

Deuteronomy 30:15-19 – 15 “Now listen! Today I am giving you a choice between life and death, between prosperity and disaster. 16 For I command you this day to love the Lord your God and to keep his commands, decrees, and regulations by walking in his ways. If you do this, you will live and multiply, and the Lord your God will bless you and the land you are about to enter and occupy. 17 “But if your heart turns away and you refuse to listen, and if you are drawn away to serve and worship other gods, 18 then I warn you now that you will certainly be destroyed. You will not live a long, good life in the land you are crossing the Jordan to occupy. 19 “Today I have given you the choice between life and death, between blessings and curses. Now I call on heaven and earth to witness the choice you make. Oh, that you would choose life, so that you and your descendants might live!

  1. The Sideliner – The one in the arena who everyone assumes is the leader, but the one who thinks more highly of himself than he ought and complains more about circumstances each day instead of actually doing something about it. This is the one who sees the train wreck happening and decides to bow down from it and walk away acting as if it never happened. This person barks orders and makes others around him feel bad and watches from the sideliness while taking credit for the battle on the arena floor. This decision will keep this one a spectator forever, always watching as the one in the arena fights for her life while he chooses excuse and justification for not stepping into battle.
  2. The Courageous – This one was one decision away from calamity and one decision away from possible death as she watched others laugh in the face of opportunity and instead they chose to run toward the direction from which they just came, into the mouth of the waiting lion. As the Courageous watched in anguish, having every reason to pick back up where she had left off, she instead chose life and liberty and spoke against the very thing that was trying to kill her. She grabbed her sword and even though she wasn’t strong enough yet to carry it herself, she handed it to the Brave and watched and learned for her time to do battle would come again.
  3. The Blame Thrower – What a heartbreaking thing to watch for those who dared to see, someone be overtaken by the roaring lion in the arena of life. The saddest part is that the Blame Thrower spewed insult and accusation toward anyone and everyone while laughing in the faces of those trying to help. She forgot momentarily what is was actually like to be in the jaws of the lion as she stepped right into his path…willingly.
  4. The Brave – She was just handed her sword by the Courageous while the Sideliner decided to step out of the arena altogether to complain to anyone who would listen. The Brave…her heart is pounding and her hands shaking as she looks upon her sword which is truth and light and she holds it high and proud, unwilling to move or be shaken. This battle weary princess realizes that this life is no longer about her but that she is called to greater service. As she watches, time and again from her vantage point in the arena, close enough to the lion to hear him breathe, people succomb to their death by CHOICE and her heart breaks and her tears smear her face because she knows this fate all too well. She stands, though, ready to take on the unseen enemy with an air of love and compassion, taking one hit after another but still setting an example for those to follow down this road she is forging. She will NEVER give up because she sees the path from which she just came and there is no turning back now. It doesn’t matter what the Blame Thrower says; it doesn’t matter that the Sideliner doesn’t seem to care. All that matters is that God is preparing her for a hope and a future that she cannot see or fathom, and she will fight to the end!

Four similar pasts, four vantage points, four opportunities to make the best decision, FOUR choices…which one are YOU?